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.288 x small and large miracles

So I feel ridiculously better today, and super appreciative of what I have in Danny.
It was full of reassurances that she'd never do anything to hurt our friendship, that she actually likes another guy, not Danny, so no worries there, and so on and so forth, which was all very sweet. And I would have thought nothing of it, except at the end she said something like, by the way, Danny didn't say anything to me, I just remember how uncomfortable you looked on Wednesday.

Which of course sounded fishy to me, it being two days later and her feeling the need to reassure me that Danny hadn't been talking to her about us. I immediately suspected that he had talked to her, didn't want her to say anything, but she still felt the need to reassure me -- just didn't want to go against his wishes either. Now, I wouldn't mind that much if he talked to her about it, but if he had talked to her and then felt it was wrong enough to do that he needed to tell her not to say anything... you know what I mean?

So I asked him about it when he was on his way home from work. I'd wanted to wait until he was home but he said he didn't want it hanging until he got there, he just wanted to talk it out then. First I told him how it had hurt my feelings to see Morgan's painting as his wallpaper, and he reassured me that he'd already changed it and that when he first got the phone, his wallpaper for a long time had been the drawing I did of us kissing. I guess I just didn't notice.

Then I told him about Morgan's text and what it sounded like to me. He said that no, he hadn't talked to her; in fact she'd told him Wednesday that she thought I looked uncomfortable, but he had dismissed it until I actually brought the issue up with him that night. "I guess she can read you even better than I can," he said. I made sure that he knew I would always trust his word -- and I did. I told him that I just couldn't leave the text hanging there, I'd had to ask him about it, and he agreed that he understood.

We hung up, but not too much later he called me back and told me that the text thing had bothered him and he'd called Morgan about it, because it actually upset him that she would send me such a text and not understand the natural conclusion I would draw from it. Apparently he was very abrupt and mean with her. He said he told her that she wasn't mature enough to know that her text would actually cause more strife between the two of us. He said they had to revert back to the way they were before Christmas, before they hung out at all. And he said that he and I had been together, happy, long before we met Morgan, and that we'd still be that way long after she passed out of our lives.

I felt bad for Morgan, because I do think he overreacted a little to a text she really meant to be helpful, not harmful. But at the same time, there was no better way to show me how much he cared. When he got home he told me he'd kick any friend to the curb in favor of me if he had to. And he told me that while none of us meant it to happen, Morgan still brought highschool drama to our adult relationship, and he didn't like that. Basically he'd do whatever it took to make sure it didn't happen again.

And he also admitted that although he wished I hadn't reacted as strongly as I did, he understands, because he knows that if the situation was reversed, he'd be a ton worse.

So basically... he completely erased all of my insecurities about the entire mess. He felt bad and apologized to Morgan for saying mean things to her, but she took it very well. We're supposed to find time over spring break to hang out just her and me for a girls day so I can get to be better friends with her.

It all worked out in the end. And I love Danny more than anything. I hate that apparently I needed some reassurance of his feelings, because although logically I knew how committed he was, I guess my heart was having problems with it. If it wasn't, then I wouldn't have felt such strong relief at his display of love and commitment.

I really appreciate all the support I got from all directions, though, throughout this. Stacie, Stephanie, John, Deborah, eotheod... all in no particular order, but you are all amazing. Love you guys!


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Mar. 14th, 2009 04:46 pm (UTC)
aw no problem! i'm so glad things worked out - sorry if it seemed like i was being a debbie downer, i guess i'm just very weary about men haha <3
Mar. 15th, 2009 12:56 am (UTC)
No you weren't a downer at all! ♥
Mar. 14th, 2009 06:53 pm (UTC)
yay! i'm glad things are better now and you feel better :D
Mar. 17th, 2009 04:24 pm (UTC)
Mar. 17th, 2009 05:48 am (UTC)
I'm so glad it worked out, and his reaction made me go all 'awwwww!"

Mar. 17th, 2009 04:25 pm (UTC)
I know right? :D Thanks sexy mama.
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